The earliest memories growing up and being asked what I wanted to be, I remember replying "a Hutterite ." I know such ambitions for a young girl.
I think what I liked about the Hutterites when I was privileged enough to visit their farms, was how calm everyone was. There didn't seem to be that clock ticking the time down, and the rush of life flying by. I also loved the long dresses and how the girls didn't have makeup.
I bet I could have played "Anne of Green Gables" with out any ridicule. Of course growing up Hutterite , I never would have seen the movie, but I could have read the book, and probably would have!
My sister and I, and sometimes Stephanie Leishman, would play Anne of Green Gables outside the house in Raymond. There was the fence that bordered our neighbors, and we would pretend that we were on the barnyard roof. We would take turns falling of the fence and reacting that seen between Anne and Gilburt. It's a good thing our neighbors thought we were weird already!
Growing up more, I changed my life long dream of wanting to be a Hutterite to a school teacher. Then it progressed into a Kindergarten school teacher. I had a passion for kids and wanted to use that to make money. After all there was a time where my sister and I were the top two babysitters in PoCo! We even formed a babysitting club for a whole couple of weeks! Such entrepreneurs we were.
Even after the birth of my first child, I started to go to school to get a four year degree in early childhood education, specializing in literature. Seriously I took a college course where we read children's books, and then made index cards and categorized them according to topics and issues in the book. I loved that class. Unfortunately I had some issues and had to drop out of college.
My next big idea was to be a hairdresser, which is weird because I hate doing hair, at least mine. My logic behind this idea was that if I hated doing after the schooling, I at least would know how to cut my own kids hair professionally saving five haircuts every few weeks. I think probably fortunately I couldn't work out daycare for this idea.
Then I applied for this grant to go back to school. I was told I had to get a four year degree, not a two year one that I originally thought I was going to get. I went online and looked up top paying degrees, I have to support by family after all! Engineering, boring...Nursing? yuck blood...Accounting, I do like numbers.....So accounting it was. About three years into my degree I decided to add on a business bachelors because I wanted to work with other people a little more.
I have an okay job right now, more entry level then anything else. I am trying to work on building up my resume and experience then my bank account.
In the meantime I am attending these classes that are awesome! It is through People Helping People. They are helping me network and build me confidence to land the job with big money. Right now I am someone who has knowledge, but no application. I am scared to try and make a mistake at work. They hopefully can give tools to get over that fear.
I think the biggest thing for me is that I like classes. I don't have to quit school per say. I think if I could afford it I'd become a professional student.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
What I wanted to be
Posted by Kelline at 8:17 AM 2 comments
Labels: Deep thoughts, Old times
Monday, October 6, 2008
A Mother Helpless
As mothers we protect and love our children unconditionally. There are those occasional times where we are completely helpless and at those times we are lost.
I know I've been there.
This comes from reading my sister Abra's blog, and feeling her pain. I know at times of pain I turn more to my Heavenly Father then ever. I was crying one time to a bishop regarding all my pain and suffering that I was going through in my life. He gave me some wonderful comfort. He reminded me of the atonement and asked if I believed that Christ suffered in the Garden of Gethsemane. Upon my answer, he then asked me why I was feeling like I was suffering by myself. See, I was under the impression Christ suffered for the sinners....not for my heartaches. This bishop told me that as long as I was unwilling to turn my pain over and move on from it, I was causing more pain and suffering on Christ.
Two things happened at this point. The first thing was a pang of guilt that hit me. How selfish was I? Christ has given the wonderful gift of atonement to me and I was not willing to accept it. The second thing was incredibly wonderful and has been a strong foundation for my growing testimony. I felt this incredible peace inside. I felt okay for the first time in my life. I felt arms around me and I knew that everything is alright and I am going through exactly what I need to at this time in my life. I also thought how awesome is it the Christ knows how heavy my heart is, he truly felt and new exactly how I felt. Never again could I ever think I was alone in something and that nobody ever has felt like I.
Thanks to this bishop in my early parenting years, I have been able to turn to my Heavenly Father and weep tears of gratitude and joy for his son that suffered for all of us mothers that have had heartache from their children.
Side note....Isn't weird sometimes you start to blog about something and its changes......I totally didn't mean to bear my testimony of the atonement, but I guess I needed to. I hope you find comfort in it!
Posted by Kelline at 10:02 AM 1 comments
Labels: Deep thoughts, testimony
Scissors and Hair, Need I say more?
Johnathan and Rosie watched the twins for me Saturday, so I could go to this awesome class through People Helping People http://www.mentors4women.org/.
I know some of you where hoping to see me cut my daughters hair sooner than later. I was trying to grow it out first so that they didn't have bangs, however Sabrina found a pair of scissors and cut her hair. Olivia had her hair cut too, not sure if she did it herself or had a little helper....
When I got home I noticed that Sabrina had some help with Rosie "evening out" the bangs. (Rosie denied it, but mother's know!)
We took the girls and got new hair cuts for them, they look cute and older. Why when kids get their haircuts, they always seem to age more?
Posted by Kelline at 8:07 AM 1 comments
Friday, October 3, 2008
Tagged
Okay so my sister Abra tagged me her blog is http://mandermint.blogspot.com/. I find rather unfair that she used all our immediate family....we'll see if our cousins have follow through.....
7 facts about me........
1) I hate my canned food messed up, or any of my kitchen cabinets. In fact if I have to get anything out of the cupboards and they are a mess, I have to stop what I am doing to fix them. Not only do they have to be neat but I have a systematical order they have to be in. Needless to say when I cook dinner, my daughter usually pulls things out for me, or else we end up eating late.
2) There are only a few people's houses that I'll eat meat at. I am so picky that I have some friends that think I'm a vegetarian. Shhhh......don't tell.
3) I don't like wearing shoes. I kick them off whenever I can.
4) Rosie and I have an ice cream habit that we need to break. We get the carton and get two spoons and pig out. This has been a special bonding moment for us for some years now. The problem is we double dip. I know it's bad. Usually it's been just us eating the ice cream so it's not really bad, but know the twins are growing up and sometimes Johnathan wants some ice cream too.
5) I have grey hair....and I'm only 30!
6) I am suppose to wear glasses.
7) I love math!
Okay so I tag......
http://teamandymichelle.blogspot.com/ (Michelle)
http://www.eat5hams.com/ (Eric)
http://heathertorrie.blogspot.com/ (Heather)
http://arrika.blogspot.com/ (Arrika)
and that's all I'm doing, cause I'm lame and don't know to many bloggers...........
Posted by Kelline at 1:57 PM 0 comments
Laughter the best medicine....
After reading Abra's funny post regarding Piper, I thought I would tell my earliest memory of something funny my kids did....However this is more about what JOSIE did then one of my kids.
I was pregnant with Matthew, so Rosie was not quite two, making Josie five, or close to it. We were at the grocery store, Rosie, Josie, Naunie, and myself. Rosie had decided she had enough and wanted to go home. Being two, she voiced her concerns quite vocally and loudly. An older gentleman tried to sympathise with her, sharing his dislike of grocery shopping. Josie looks at him and said quite matter of fact, "Well, it wouldn't be so bad, if her mother did beat her."
I think I nearly died of embarrassment that day~
Thanks Josie!
I love the age range between 3-5 they say and do the cleverest and honest things. I think though the award still goes to Patrick. Stories I could tell....but my favorite....
I remember he loved going across to one of his friend's house. We all would watch from the huge window in the front. One particular day, his friend couldn't play. Patrick walked to his garage....next thing we know....there is a small puddle growing and running down the driveway...Patrick says he was mad at him because he couldn't play!
Posted by Kelline at 11:01 AM 0 comments
Thursday, October 2, 2008
School is in full swing....
Seriously we have an awesome PTA at Rosie's school. They are on top of the fundraisers, they have family activities throughout the year, plus they do a program called Reflections that Rosie has placed a couple years in a row. She wrote a poem one year, I'll have to find it and post it on here.
This year they put together a roller skate night at the school, with food to buy and a live DJ. This looks to be a great family night!
Rosie also has an incredible teacher this year. Her name is Mrs. Murray. She is encouraging her to explore other cultures and learn new languages. Last week they had some french and Spanish words for their spelling test. One of the words was nom de plume....which I thought was an interesting pick. This week they are learning how to count in Japanese and some other Japanese words.
Rosie has inherited a love of language and a respect of culture thanks to my family. I am so glad that she does not portray the ignorance that I have had to deal with from many Utahans/Americans. Although I am a proud American, I also remember that my heritage is multicultural. There is so much to learn through other nations, a close minded person will never experience true growth!
Posted by Kelline at 8:02 AM 2 comments
Labels: Deep thoughts, RoseMarie
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
put the stamp on then.....MAIL!
Seriously...
Why must I always forget to MAIL a letter? I get the stamp on the envelope and then I never mail it. (I just sent 30 invoices/payments off at work) You would think that I could handle the task. But no. Piper's card is sitting in the house in Herriman, maybe it'll get there the same time as Abra's, hopefully before her brother's b-day. Maybe I'll lose it and find it just in time for her b-day next year.......
It's coming I promise.......when I'm just not quite sure.
Posted by Kelline at 11:22 AM 2 comments

