I think I ought to start writing again.....I don't know.
At this point I am indifferent to life or circumstances.
How I feel and where I am are two different places.
I am hurt and pissed off at words and actions of people in my life. Not that I don't take full responsibility for actions and choices I have made.
I was asked to remember my teenage years and how I was.........I prefer not too.....I been through the therapy and relived it already.
I never claimed to be perfect, but to make me feel like a heel of a person?
I want to run or numb the pain. My head spins and people side step around me. Let the shit hit the fan....I heard somewhere that open wounds heal faster. I am at that point pour all the damn salt in and let me clean them out and begin to heal.
I am okay, for now and this moment. All I can do is live life TODAY, and in the moment. Namaste.