Thursday, May 20, 2010

why and where i am

I think I ought to start writing again.....I don't know.

At this point I am indifferent to life or circumstances.

How I feel and where I am are two different places.

I am hurt and pissed off at words and actions of people in my life. Not that I don't take full responsibility for actions and choices I have made.

I was asked to remember my teenage years and how I was.........I prefer not too.....I been through the therapy and relived it already.

I never claimed to be perfect, but to make me feel like a heel of a person?

I want to run or numb the pain. My head spins and people side step around me. Let the shit hit the fan....I heard somewhere that open wounds heal faster. I am at that point pour all the damn salt in and let me clean them out and begin to heal.

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

Become aware.

I am okay, for now and this moment. All I can do is live life TODAY, and in the moment. Namaste.


Kristina P. said...

I am glad to see you writing again, Kelline.

Shannon said...

I'm sorry that you are going through such a hard time! Hang in there! You are in my thoughts and prayers.